The First

Everyone had their first taste. When I was so enraged that I broke my pencil, it was the first time I had ever become that angry with my pals. The first letter I wrote to my family explaining how I was unhappy with my life in the house and wanted to leave, but it was pre-discovered by my siblings and turned out to be an amusing conversation during my family lunch, and I'm still living with him after that. The first boyfriend/girlfriend relationship that ended in leaving a trauma for a period of time.

And this shot was taken in a pub in Siemriep, and it wasn't my first trip to the pub though, but it was my first journey to another country. The first time that I communicated completely in a foreign language, I was alone, and everything was new, such as paying in dollars, staying and hanging out with people I had never met before, and so on. Funny how I didn't care as much as I remembered, I just knew that I was having a wonderful time, memories to remember and stories to tell, like how my phone was literally "flying" from my hand to another's after that shot and there were no boundaries left in da house as all I felt. At my host's place on Couchsurfing that I stayed with the other 02 backpackers, I was introduced to the Tinder's world for the first time and god knows how 'professional' they are. I also got tricked for money as riding the tuk tuk and only later then I firgured it out. Besides, I had delicious meals everyday, one of the best went for the food market definitely.

There may be moment ups and downs, and the first time may not be precisely as we imagined it to be.

However, as one of my friends once said to me, "the past is essentially defined by the present", and how you think about memories today is what truly matters.

If I look back on it, my first couple's relationship was a painful event, but it was also a useful lesson for future ones. My childhood memories with my family would be a shadow, if I didn't realise that they still remembered and made fun of it, but only because they care about me and because it reminded me of my writing interest back then as well. If I had only recalled the trip was a pool of foolish errors and hazards that I should've have risked on my own, but a lifetime amusements rewarding after that, I would've not imagined myself for another upcoming trip that lasted for 01 month in Malaysia.

So, with all that has transpired in our lives, let us take a step back and reflect on it. It may still stink at times, but you know I got my shot after all.